Days of Gratitude - Day 12 & 13

Day 12: Day Off
Yesterday my mom allowed me to take the day off from work to just relax.  I haven't had a legitimate day off (not counting 2 sick days) since taking one day off in July for my anniversary.  So it was nice to be able to sleep in, go to zumba in the morning, have a quite relaxing lunch, get caught up on my Grey's Anatomy & then take a nap.  Talk about one relaxing day!  And to top it all off, my parents joined me to Isaac's first playoff game - which of course they won! (Go hubby!)  All in all - a great day!


Day 13: Quiet
Blessed with another quiet morning - slept in and lounged for a little while. Then got ready for the day and spent the remainder of the morning quietly reading in my front room.  I'm just about finished with Emily Griffin's "Something Blue" -- so far it's pretty good, I don't think it's as good as the book before it "Something Borrowed."  But I'm not complaining - it's still a good read.


We were able to go up to the Nike Employee Store this afternoon thanks to our great friends & their connections.  But I had a revelation (I think this is #8?) about myself...I suck at shopping.  I knew logically we had the money to able to purchase some things.  I had been wearing the same pair of work out shoes for about 3 years...But when it came down to going to check out, I started to feel queasy and just not well.  I suck.  Here I am feeling guilty about shopping with my husband when we pay all of our bills and make sure that all of our commitments are handled, that we make our tithe each month.  However I can't seem to let myself buy a pair of new running capris, a pair of shoes & a new hat.  I don't get it & I don't get myself.  Here's what I was thinking as the nice lady was scanning each item...who do we have to buy Christmas gifts for, where are we getting our $$ for our annual movie/casino/shopping trip on Thanksgiving, how much do we want/need to have to take to Hawaii? It's so stressful...I hate how stressed I get about these things. It's exhausting.  How does one still be mindful of the finances but not be over run by guilt or stress? Ugh...awful way to spend my day.


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