these days my head has been filled to the brim with thoughts. thoughts about work. thoughts about isaac. thoughts about football (ironic i know...). thoughts about my parents. thoughts about my brother. thoughts about my friends. thoughts, thoughts, thoughts. sometimes so many thoughts that my only refuge seems to only be available when i sleep.
waiting & releasing is not exactly a strong suit of mine. in fact it is an area of great weakness. control freak is how i might be described from time to time. this is the first time where i have no control, i have no way to make things move, and i have absolutely no control over what the outcome might be. we are staring two completely different lifestyles in the face and trying to see where God is pointing us. i'll tell ya, it's a challenge! which way do we turn? which step should we take? there's excitement & opportunity in both locales....but which is the right one?
see what i mean? thoughts can be overwhelming....and let's not even throw in the fact that everyone & their MOTHER is having a baby right about now. oh i'm sure we're just at that stage in life where all our friends or friends of friends are having kids. but it doesn't make it any easier some of the time to have to explain why we're choosing not to have kids right now.
sorry for the random thoughts...but like i said, i've been dealing with random, never ending rolls of thoughts running thru my head....
<3
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Friday, January 27, 2012
Fill In The Blank Friday...
Last night was so much fun -- spent the afternoon/early evening at a work function up in Portland. Had a great time - and thus today I'm feeling tired & dragging a bit. So in order to actually keep up with the blog today I am going to link up with Lauren's weekly blanks! Thanks so much to the little things we do for the blanks! Makes my post today that much easier! :)
1. My favorite place I've ever traveled to is... it's a tie between Australia & Switzerland/Austria. Both were incredibly beautiful & peaceful!
2. Norway is somewhere I'd love to go someday.
3. I pass the time on a plane (bus, or car ride/train) by sleeping, reading, and/or listening to music.
4. My three must-haves when I travel are a blanket, a good book, & iphone/charger
5. My favorite travel companion is my husband Isaac for sure -- we're good travel mates :)
6. The craziest thing that ever happened to me while traveling is honestly...nothing too crazy has happened. I'm one of those plan ahead & plan well type of travelers...so there's not too much that ever happens.
7. The most exotic food I've ever tried while traveling is crocodile soup in Australia...very bizarre.
8. If I could live anywhere else, I'd live in Arizona, Norway, or Australia
9. I have been to seventeen(17) states in the U.S.
And now...back to my normal work day....aw, shucks...
<3
2. Norway is somewhere I'd love to go someday.
3. I pass the time on a plane (bus, or car ride/train) by sleeping, reading, and/or listening to music.
4. My three must-haves when I travel are a blanket, a good book, & iphone/charger
5. My favorite travel companion is my husband Isaac for sure -- we're good travel mates :)
6. The craziest thing that ever happened to me while traveling is honestly...nothing too crazy has happened. I'm one of those plan ahead & plan well type of travelers...so there's not too much that ever happens.
7. The most exotic food I've ever tried while traveling is crocodile soup in Australia...very bizarre.
8. If I could live anywhere else, I'd live in Arizona, Norway, or Australia
9. I have been to seventeen(17) states in the U.S.
And now...back to my normal work day....aw, shucks...
<3
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Gettin' Serious
Isaac & I decided that this is the year for us to shed the pounds that have been plaguing us for the last year & a half...Yup, a year & a half! Eek! Thankfully one of my top 5 favorite shows is The Biggest Loser. And the current season is about having NO excuses. So that is what I'm trying to roll with right now...no excuses. That's the goal -- operating with no excuses when it comes to my health & fitness.
And of course I'd love for that to filter over in to other areas of my life. But right now I need to focus on one thing... one thing... one thing...
Would love to have a yoga class I could actually get to around here...but alas I do not have a logical option. So I'll have to stick my DVD options. Any one have a good suggestion for a quick, great yoga DVD workout?
How do you stay focused on your health & fitness??
<3
And of course I'd love for that to filter over in to other areas of my life. But right now I need to focus on one thing... one thing... one thing...
Would love to have a yoga class I could actually get to around here...but alas I do not have a logical option. So I'll have to stick my DVD options. Any one have a good suggestion for a quick, great yoga DVD workout?
How do you stay focused on your health & fitness??
<3
Friday, January 20, 2012
fail
here's the truth...whenever my short sale files don't come together i feel like a total fail. even if it's nothing i have control over....it's a fail in my book.
ugh....hate today.
can i crawl back in to bed and pull the covers over my head??
<3
ugh....hate today.
can i crawl back in to bed and pull the covers over my head??
<3
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Freakin' Rain!
The heavens have opened up here in the PNW....and they are WIIIIIIIIIDE open. What do I mean exactly? Oh just a mere 5 1/2inches of rain in the past 48hours. Yup, you read that right. 5 1/2 inches!
Don't get me wrong, I am a true Oregonian at heart & typically do not mind the rain. I remember that this is the stuff that keeps my beautiful state so green & lush. However, this is borderline nuts. And the only thing that this constant, heavy rain is doing is bringing up my homeowner anxiety! Are my foundation vents open? Are my gutters clean & clear? Why are there like 10 mini puddles around my barkdust in the front yard? Is everything battoned down in the event of chaos?? Eeeeek Primarily what happens next is that I sent a barrage of text messages to darling husband Isaac (have I ever mentioned how patient the man is with me...even in the middle of full blown OCD moments????....well, he is!) forwarding all those previous questions. Oh don't mind that he's a high school math teacher, and doesn't have the availability to speedily respond. Does that stop me? Oh goodness no. But he is a saint & will calmly respond when he has time & will likely this weekend ensure that all of our items are cared for and/or give me the green light to call a contractor to get stuff rolling. I can't go thru another winter with all these questions/concerns buzzing thru my head.
Ok...well while I try to distract myself from the seemingly never ending thoughts of what could go wrong or is going wrong...I will focus on the fact that my Las Vegas spring break family trip is 64 days away. Ahhh...Vegas. Annnnnnnnd I'm only 191 days away from my beloved Eagle Crest....aka my heaven on earth!
How do you survive the rain??
<3
Don't get me wrong, I am a true Oregonian at heart & typically do not mind the rain. I remember that this is the stuff that keeps my beautiful state so green & lush. However, this is borderline nuts. And the only thing that this constant, heavy rain is doing is bringing up my homeowner anxiety! Are my foundation vents open? Are my gutters clean & clear? Why are there like 10 mini puddles around my barkdust in the front yard? Is everything battoned down in the event of chaos?? Eeeeek Primarily what happens next is that I sent a barrage of text messages to darling husband Isaac (have I ever mentioned how patient the man is with me...even in the middle of full blown OCD moments????....well, he is!) forwarding all those previous questions. Oh don't mind that he's a high school math teacher, and doesn't have the availability to speedily respond. Does that stop me? Oh goodness no. But he is a saint & will calmly respond when he has time & will likely this weekend ensure that all of our items are cared for and/or give me the green light to call a contractor to get stuff rolling. I can't go thru another winter with all these questions/concerns buzzing thru my head.
Ok...well while I try to distract myself from the seemingly never ending thoughts of what could go wrong or is going wrong...I will focus on the fact that my Las Vegas spring break family trip is 64 days away. Ahhh...Vegas. Annnnnnnnd I'm only 191 days away from my beloved Eagle Crest....aka my heaven on earth!
How do you survive the rain??
<3
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Practice Patience
This season right now is one where we're not sure what direction we're going. In fact we're kind of making movements forward in about two or three directions. Not sure how any of them are going to work. Simply moving forward until we are told to stop.
Isaac submitted his application for a head football coaching position at our local high school. It'd be a step up for him professionally, and is something I know without a shadow of a doubt he would be FANTASTIC at. He has that natural ability to assess situations & think logically, without losing the personal side of each situation. But with the school district there are always a certain amount of unknowns.
So it seems fitting that one of my areas of weakness, patience, would be tested in this time. I am not what you would call a patient person. (I am more the person that unwrapped gifts as a child, because the anticipation was more than I could bear) I've been driving by the high school each day praying for God's will to be first, and for Isaac & I to be content in what plan He has for us. Even if that means something different. (super honest moment....sometimes when I talk about this, I feel silly/shallow because on the spectrum of life there are so many other things to be focusing on.....) We've been praying together & individually about what the immediate future holds. And as is fitting, God is using his word to speak to my heart also about being patient, being content, and trusting in Him. Sometimes easier said than done..but each day I try again & try to remain focused.
Lord where are you leading? We are anxiously waiting to see what you have in store. And we know we probably won't make sense of it all until we're at a point where we can look back & see how you pieced it all together. Trying each day to trust, learn, & lean in to you.
<3
Isaac submitted his application for a head football coaching position at our local high school. It'd be a step up for him professionally, and is something I know without a shadow of a doubt he would be FANTASTIC at. He has that natural ability to assess situations & think logically, without losing the personal side of each situation. But with the school district there are always a certain amount of unknowns.
So it seems fitting that one of my areas of weakness, patience, would be tested in this time. I am not what you would call a patient person. (I am more the person that unwrapped gifts as a child, because the anticipation was more than I could bear) I've been driving by the high school each day praying for God's will to be first, and for Isaac & I to be content in what plan He has for us. Even if that means something different. (super honest moment....sometimes when I talk about this, I feel silly/shallow because on the spectrum of life there are so many other things to be focusing on.....) We've been praying together & individually about what the immediate future holds. And as is fitting, God is using his word to speak to my heart also about being patient, being content, and trusting in Him. Sometimes easier said than done..but each day I try again & try to remain focused.
Lord where are you leading? We are anxiously waiting to see what you have in store. And we know we probably won't make sense of it all until we're at a point where we can look back & see how you pieced it all together. Trying each day to trust, learn, & lean in to you.
<3
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Bite The Bullet
Alright it's about time I bite the bullet.... I've finally signed up to take my real estate exam.
I've been working full time with & for my mom in her office since I graduated in 2008. I think having always "worked" with my mom since I was little I have dragged my feet about it.
There's something about working with your parent all that time -- I sometimes get a little worried/consumed with anxiety/fear that I'm doing this to please my mom or be the dutiful daughter. But then there are times when I even catch myself off guard by how good I am (not to sound like an ego-maniac) at what I'm doing here. The positives right now outweigh any fear I have, and I'm sure as time goes on I'll see how I fit & exactly what I bring to the table each & every day
So I'm not going to delay this any further -- rather than just talk about getting my license, I'm going to to do it. My test is scheduled for February 16th. Meaning for the next 30+ days I will be studying my rear end off, taking the test simulator multiple times over, and praying I'm not one of the fateful many that fail the first time thru.
Say a prayer for me as the day draws near...
<3
I've been working full time with & for my mom in her office since I graduated in 2008. I think having always "worked" with my mom since I was little I have dragged my feet about it.
There's something about working with your parent all that time -- I sometimes get a little worried/consumed with anxiety/fear that I'm doing this to please my mom or be the dutiful daughter. But then there are times when I even catch myself off guard by how good I am (not to sound like an ego-maniac) at what I'm doing here. The positives right now outweigh any fear I have, and I'm sure as time goes on I'll see how I fit & exactly what I bring to the table each & every day
So I'm not going to delay this any further -- rather than just talk about getting my license, I'm going to to do it. My test is scheduled for February 16th. Meaning for the next 30+ days I will be studying my rear end off, taking the test simulator multiple times over, and praying I'm not one of the fateful many that fail the first time thru.
Say a prayer for me as the day draws near...
<3
Monday, January 9, 2012
Substance
There have been many times that I log in to my blog and find myself at a loss for what to say...what to share... Tonight is really no different. i love catching up on my favorite blogs -- but a lot of times I worry that what I'm doing/saying is so trivial & lacks any true substance.
And that makes me think of other areas of my life...am I lacking substance in those areas also? Am I coasting thru on the easy stuff & glossing over the real life stuff? It always bothers me when I'm in various situations & I can just tell when people aren't being genuine. When there is something lurking beneath the surface. It always irks me to a degree to go through meetings, coffees, etc with this taking place.
On our trip to Hawaii this year I was able to have a genuine, truthful, kind conversation with Isaac's cousin's wife. It was probably one of the best conversations I have had with any one in that family since we were married. Honestly one of the best nights of our vacation. I can't even begin to explain how comforting it was to be able to share my thoughts, fears, anxieties, thanks without any fear of judgment. It was such a gift to experience & share in that true, real substance.
What about you? A couple posts ago I shared about wanting to fully participate in all areas of my life. To be fully engaged at all times. This is one arena where I definitely need & want to grow in. I want to be share my authentic self with those in my life. I want to feel comfortable to consistently & constantly operate out of my true strengths, and not be so consumed by fear when it comes to my weaknesses. How do you practice or live as your authentic self?
<3
And that makes me think of other areas of my life...am I lacking substance in those areas also? Am I coasting thru on the easy stuff & glossing over the real life stuff? It always bothers me when I'm in various situations & I can just tell when people aren't being genuine. When there is something lurking beneath the surface. It always irks me to a degree to go through meetings, coffees, etc with this taking place.
On our trip to Hawaii this year I was able to have a genuine, truthful, kind conversation with Isaac's cousin's wife. It was probably one of the best conversations I have had with any one in that family since we were married. Honestly one of the best nights of our vacation. I can't even begin to explain how comforting it was to be able to share my thoughts, fears, anxieties, thanks without any fear of judgment. It was such a gift to experience & share in that true, real substance.
What about you? A couple posts ago I shared about wanting to fully participate in all areas of my life. To be fully engaged at all times. This is one arena where I definitely need & want to grow in. I want to be share my authentic self with those in my life. I want to feel comfortable to consistently & constantly operate out of my true strengths, and not be so consumed by fear when it comes to my weaknesses. How do you practice or live as your authentic self?
<3
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Oh family...
I'm gonna keep it short & sweet today....
I love having my little brother home, it makes me wish he were back home full time. But I'm proud of what he's doing too.
But even with him home, there's always a little bit of drama/chaos/misunderstandings. And being the big sister that I am & add to that the fact that I am the one who's home -- I have to play mediator some of the time. It's necessary and I'm happy to do it so that our family stays in tact :)
Tonight's agenda....Wii, spaghetti, taking down ornaments (yes I know it's late...we've been traveling!), time with brother & my niece. All in all -- a good night ahead!
<3
I love having my little brother home, it makes me wish he were back home full time. But I'm proud of what he's doing too.
But even with him home, there's always a little bit of drama/chaos/misunderstandings. And being the big sister that I am & add to that the fact that I am the one who's home -- I have to play mediator some of the time. It's necessary and I'm happy to do it so that our family stays in tact :)
Tonight's agenda....Wii, spaghetti, taking down ornaments (yes I know it's late...we've been traveling!), time with brother & my niece. All in all -- a good night ahead!
<3
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Oh Hey Random Thoughts
Yup -- picking up the slack from where I have left off.
NO more piles of junk laying around. If it comes out of its home...it goes back. Seems simple right?? Well here's to being organized & being a bit more domestic this year!
And besides that....I don't really have much else on my brain. Except for this nagging thought that I don't want to miss out on my life. Any moment of it. And so I'm going to be fully engaged in my life from here on out -- of course, allowing for proper care/rest I'm looking forward to being in my life instead of watching time pass by!
Oh these random nights alone at home...the things that come to mind :)
But in other news -- I am married to an angel. Honey Isaac spent this whole past weekend helping my dad & brother complete some projects at my Gran's cabin. He is such a gem & so kind, and not to mention patient with my kooky pops. It was such a nice quiet, peaceful time with family taking care of the special place Gran left for us.
Emptying my brain of all these random thoughts is kind of nice but I don't have any more time -- it's back to my laundry duties for the evening!
<3
NO more piles of junk laying around. If it comes out of its home...it goes back. Seems simple right?? Well here's to being organized & being a bit more domestic this year!
And besides that....I don't really have much else on my brain. Except for this nagging thought that I don't want to miss out on my life. Any moment of it. And so I'm going to be fully engaged in my life from here on out -- of course, allowing for proper care/rest I'm looking forward to being in my life instead of watching time pass by!
Oh these random nights alone at home...the things that come to mind :)
But in other news -- I am married to an angel. Honey Isaac spent this whole past weekend helping my dad & brother complete some projects at my Gran's cabin. He is such a gem & so kind, and not to mention patient with my kooky pops. It was such a nice quiet, peaceful time with family taking care of the special place Gran left for us.
Emptying my brain of all these random thoughts is kind of nice but I don't have any more time -- it's back to my laundry duties for the evening!
<3
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