these days my head has been filled to the brim with thoughts. thoughts about work. thoughts about isaac. thoughts about football (ironic i know...). thoughts about my parents. thoughts about my brother. thoughts about my friends. thoughts, thoughts, thoughts. sometimes so many thoughts that my only refuge seems to only be available when i sleep.
waiting & releasing is not exactly a strong suit of mine. in fact it is an area of great weakness. control freak is how i might be described from time to time. this is the first time where i have no control, i have no way to make things move, and i have absolutely no control over what the outcome might be. we are staring two completely different lifestyles in the face and trying to see where God is pointing us. i'll tell ya, it's a challenge! which way do we turn? which step should we take? there's excitement & opportunity in both locales....but which is the right one?
see what i mean? thoughts can be overwhelming....and let's not even throw in the fact that everyone & their MOTHER is having a baby right about now. oh i'm sure we're just at that stage in life where all our friends or friends of friends are having kids. but it doesn't make it any easier some of the time to have to explain why we're choosing not to have kids right now.
sorry for the random thoughts...but like i said, i've been dealing with random, never ending rolls of thoughts running thru my head....
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If it makes it any easier, we aren't having babies right now either. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Natalie! It's at least comforting to know we're not the only ones! ;)
DeleteI am at that stage where all of my friends have babies and we get asked all the time when we are having kids. It's not that I don't want them, it's just not happening for us as quickly as it does for others.
ReplyDeleteRandom thoughts are sometimes good and sometimes bad. I hate the ones that linger around for days.
Yeah -- the ones that linger for days are so exhausting most of the time, not to mention frustrating too.
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