apparently...

so apparently falling off the face of the earth is kind of my thing...  i've been totally MIA from here, pretty quiet in the "twitterverse" (please don't judge me for using that term...), and pretty non-existent from instagram.  there have been countless times i've logged in, hoping to find some gem ready in my brain to share or to have some creative thing to display.  alas i did not...and thus i disappeared.
and in all brutal honesty - i mostly haven't had anything super "worthy" of sharing.  there are times that i wonder what the hell i'm even doing.  where the hell i'm going.  who the hell i'm even becoming....don't you just freakin' love your mid-20's?!  talk about inconsistency!  compound that with still trying to find my place in this whole football world - it's so much different than the last go around & it's terribly challenging to find my footing.

amidst all of this there has been one thing that has made its self known to me a number of times...and very clearly...

 so in the midst of all the confusion, in the dark times of my day or night....i'm trying to remember and hold true to these words.  there is a purpose, though it may not be clear right now.  it may not be clear for some time.  but regardless - i am not here on accident.  and my circumstances are not an accident either. in time i'll understand - and for now all i need to know is this.
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